Was on Hiatus

I was on Hiatus aka mini vacation but even on vacation I'm busy running around catching up with other things I've fallin behind on. One thing I've learned in my mini vacation is that I need to get more organized so my productivity can be at it's max. I need to do it all with ease of mind so the pressure doesn't eat me alive.  So for the next few days my work station will be remodeled so it can meet my high pace work ethic.

But before I go. I'm a get you up to date with what's been going on these past few weeks. 12 shows in 2 1/2 months; shows every week. Comedy ranging from Dirty, mellow, church friendly, family friendly and theatrical. New material for all my rasa that has been keeping up with me through out my career. It's been difficult but I feel blessed to be so busy. I do admit working so hard promoting, selling tickets, organizing the show, and performing has been exhausting. I felt burnt out which is why I took a mini vacation to get my head together.

My mini vacation started not so bueno. I began to feel the negativit influence, inflicted on me by "The Babymomma". I try so hard to be positive towards her to better our relationship as parents who share a son but she refuses to move forward settling with a court order that I had to hire a lawyer for. I know she's not a bad person but she partnered up with an insecure dude but can I blame him. I am Jerrylicious even though that is not my intention with her any more. FUCK THAT! I was miserable when I was with her or at least at the end. That ship has sailed from both ends. We both didn't trust each other. It's time to move forward to a better life. I do wish I could communicate better with her and even with her dude despite the painful history but in reality they don't want to. The funny part is that I'm the one that got fuck over yet they both really hate me and I'm the one trying to move forward peacefully. Ain't that some shit! A part of me does want to get ignorant and say Fuck You to both of them but 2 things:
1. My son is in the middle
2. That's not the kind of person I want to be any more.
A teacher once told me: "Are you smart" I respond "Yes" He then says: "Then don't worry".  I finally understand those words. Violence is not the only solution when you have a mind. It's not going to be easy and it may take some time. Even though I believe "sometimes" punching somebody is a whole lot faster way to deliver a message that will not be ignored and easier too, but then what kind of example am I setting for my son. My beautiful son; the only person that keeps me grounded when I want to say FUCK IT.

I know I went on ranting for a bit rasa. Sorry I had to vent a little. I had a mini vacation that was suppose to help me relax yet it felt like I went running barefooted through thorn bushes. I must admit there were a lot of good moments just for the record. I look forward to getting back to work. I know there's a lesson to be learned from this experience. I don't know what yet but I will figure it out. Until then I will continue to fight for what I believe in and continue representing for you rasa in a positive light. I rep for my city, I do it for my rasa.